Raw Writings Blog

Raw Writings Blog, Monikajeneva

Raw Writings Blog –

Narcissistic Abuse, Heroes, God, Love, Mental Health, and various strange subject matters are what you will find on this blog via analogies, poetry, memes, and creative writing.

I am in the middle stages of writing my memoir, Killing Mommy. Though straightforward, it will take you on thorn-ridden road of unexpected and complex circumstances.

One of my sons is a Captain/Engineer in the Fire Department, and my other son is a Sergeant in the Military.

I love my babies no matter their career station in life; it is their hearts and souls that are so precious! Thank you, Jesus!

I plan to write more on this About Me page soon, or whatever.

I am an INFP.

Thank you for your visit!


Hmm, I think it is time

that the air be cleared;

yes, they have diagnosed me

as being really weird.

But it is time you look closer,

and view each blaring clue,

because even though

you will not admit it,

you are incredibly weird, too.


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Isaiah 55:6-7
Seek the LORD while he may be found. Call on him while he is near. Let the wicked forsake his way, and the unrighteous man his thoughts. Let him return to the LORD, and he will have mercy on him,
to our God, for he will freely pardon.

Raw Writings Blog, Monikajeneva
Raw Writings Blog, Monikajeneva


    1. Ha haha! That made me laugh. If I’m your kind of weird, then you must be my kind of weird. Ha haha! That made me laugh, too.

      ♥️ Thank you for your weirdly kind words. ♥️ Hugs!


  1. Hi, Tamara! I enjoyed reading about you, and I definitely don’t think you’re weird at all. I think you’re you and that’s pretty awesome. As you may have already read from my reply to you – I love hearing that you are an INFP. I’m an INFJ so we should be able to see eye to eye pretty darn well! 😀

    I love that you love cats too. If you’d like, come see me at Cat Care Solutions too? Another cat lover/parent is ALWAYS welcome! https://catcaresolutions.com

    I pray your book continues to go well for you. Guaranteed, it’ll be amazing. Sending endless love your way. I look forward to knowing more about you!

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    1. Holly, thank you! You are so kind. 😊 I will bookmark your link and come check it out a bit later, today. Can’t wait!

      I think you’re super cool, too! YAY, INFJ & INFP! 🦄 I am glad we are friends, now. 😃

      I just had to put a cat down because he was sick and 14 years old. I cried. But, he is at peace, now. He was quite the monster, but that’s why my kids and I loved him so! I think he was Tri-Polar.

      I have another cat who is a young little girl- a Calico. She is incredibly loving and cuddly. She is curled up on my bed, right now. Every now and then she makes such cute kitty sleeping sounds like a baby. You would love her!


  2. Ive been traveling this weekend, and couldn’t focus on this.
    That sad face above is about him and his new supply, playing out on social media. He seems to be smearing me to his newest supply, to win him over, is why sad. But what’s funny his supply doesn’t seem to be buying it, having followed me on social media for a while. His IPPS keeps ‘talking to me’ normally despite Tudor trying to drive a wedge… (no surprises there) I think he suspects I’m a double identity, i hope not.

    It’s all connotations, interpretations, inferences, guesses, etc like a chess game. I’m good at it, we all are.
    I took a break to give them space, but somethings going on between them. I think his IPPS has given him an ultimatum, I know cas he’s like me: either it’s real or i ignore it, because it’s no longer giving me satisfaction, and my mind is searching for something new or already encountered other interests. Aspies are restless, and lightning fast thinking.

    I hope HG has courage to pursue him further, and get a cherry partner. I think he’s narcissistically paranoid, not knowing he can rely on ‘us’.

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    1. I’m sorry. I’m sorta lost. Since I have forgotten much about the above person (Tudor), I’m no longer “in the know” of what he’s doing, or not.

      I find anything concerning him a bore because Narcissists have no authenticity or originality. I imagine everything is still the same olé, same olé with him, and will remain so. 🥱

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      1. Aww.. olol.
        Is not cas he’s boring, how can looking at such exact, nonjudgmental, emotionless, perfect mirror be boring? Is cas one wants a closer reflection, not a distant mirage.

        Will remain so — is that so? 😦

        Ya he basically takes me for granted. He said I was ‘kept as a dirty little secret’, it’s not true, there barely ever was anything ‘dirty’ about it. It was PG13.

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        1. I do not hold the same fascination toward HG Tudor as you do, Emotion Detective.

          If you go to my post, Frauds of Facebook, you will see a comment by someone named “Georgettia” claiming that she was his real time girlfriend. Here is the link: https://monikajeneva.wordpress.com/2019/06/23/frauds-facebook-creative-writing-bbycgn/

          I thought you might find it of interest. But, I have no desire to discuss him- http://www.narcsite.com -or his Narcissistic trolls. I have no interest in this person. He is a waste of my time.

          P.S. – I have his picture and his mailing address which is why he quit harassing and hoovering me.

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  3. I couldn’t find a reply button so I write here.
    I didn’t think you were going to want to reply..
    Anyway, ya it’s not my thoughts at all, it felt good for a long time, and nothing wrong with that. It’s just after all this time, you simply know this person so well, especially you know me so well, that it seems there’s nothing new to say and conversation is not even necessary.
    Not that it isn’t wanted, there’s just nothing left to say. Words seem to be in the way. And that feels okay too, somehow.

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    1. I am sorry that your paid consultation with that self-proclaimed Sociopath was so awful. It doesn’t surprise me. As I recall, he played favorites. Those who bowed down to him and advertised his products were treated well. But anyone who had a mind of their own and did not treat him like a “god”, or pay him a regular income was condemned. He treated those under his spell well, though. They were as toxic as was, he.


      1. Ya i think he’s self-proclaimed too. I don’t think any of these stories about the good doctors are even true. It’s just creative writing, imagination, all of it.
        Yes, his puppets are so pitiful, and malignant too, esp REN & NA. They have no life, all they do is mirror him. I wonder for how many years more. He likes them cas they are like him, these same kind.

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      1. How have you been Tamara, i missed you.. xo
        I hope all is well with you, just caught up a bit on your blog I’ve forgotten about.

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          1. Redoing? Oh..
            I’m not as fine, lately. If you recall mr Tudor, we discussed him previously, well I signed up for one of his private sessions and he mistreated me there again. I don’t know what I did to deserve it. 😦

            Have you heard from Clarece? She completely disappeared.

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              1. That’s good, that time period seems to be long gone. Ya, they are so easy to forget, like a distant utopian dream, created by mr Tudor.
                Don’t write in haste, Tam. Take your time, especially with your memoirs, I’m going to read too. I’ll look you up and I’ll never forget your beautiful poetry.
                Hugs, E.D.

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                    1. It felt like we became too familiar, I felt like I didn’t know where I begin and where you end.
                      You don’t have to publish it, is for you to know.

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