Dark Shadow of A Narcissist

Dark Shadow of A Narcissist

Narcissist,

you are a dark shadow

of a lost and

forgotten season;

in this memory

of you,

there is no rhyme,

nor any reason.

.

You came about

disguised as a

pure and

precious love;

yet, the truth

I did not fathom

was your future,

ruthless shove.

.

You smiled

all the while

as my heart did

bruise and break;

you glided past any

regrets of your own,

and your devotion

was counterfeit

and fake.

.

You are the

Great Pretender,

skilled at deception,

vice and verse.

Ha! Instead of leaving

me any better,

you left me

so much worse.

.

And now,

you skip on out

to more usable flesh

to thrash and destroy.

Will you be the sorrowful

victim, again,

as your next

tactical killing ploy?

.

You will forever

be the Game-Player,

messing with naïve

hearts alike;

and, there will always

be fools like me,

in which for

you to strike.

.

Although we all

have a hungry heart

for you to dangle

and break;

Narcissist, you will

never know genuine love,

yourself,

nor will you ever

be conscious

and awake.

.

You will go

on your way,

and never desire

any change;

you will always be

without fault,

never grasping

that you are

deranged.

Dark Shadow of A Narcissist

Dark Shadow of A Narcissist

Masks

Narcissists pretend they are caring and helpful citizens with their convincing masks of human goodness. Do not let them fool you, though; they are like peanut butter and jelly sandwiches without the peanut butter and jelly inside (you know, empty inside; without a self).

However, these dark shadows cannot keep it up…that is, their human masks.

They cannot bear them 100% of the time. Even Super-Glue will not do the job for them. This is because their human masks are unnatural, and painfu for them to wear over their snouts.

They just want to let their hair down, and be their mean ole’ evil selves,  without having to wear such alien disguises as that of “warmth and decency” (or even the poor, helpless victim), to deceive and ensnare their prey.

Their devotion is counterfeit.

Thus, behind closed doors, these burdensome masks slip right off, and dangle around their ankles, while their partners have to put up with the horrible beasts that no one else sees.

Sometime people feel sorry for these deranged, Diabolical Predators because of their inability to feel love. But, let’s not deceive ourselves; not feeling love does not upset a Narcissist.

Dark Shadow of A Narcissist

Dark Shadow of A Narcissist

Deranged

However, what upsets, or rather, infuriates a Narcissist or Sociopath, is not encasing all superiority, getting paid all entitlement dues, nor leaving their victims (whom they idealize, devalue, and discard), in the worst mental, financial, spiritual and/or physical traumatized state than any human being should need bear.

Malignant Narcissists and Sociopaths do not experience true-love (what they feel is hate, envy, and scalding fury).

But, no… to not know genuine love is not an issue that causes individuals with Narcissism or Sociopathic Disorders, to suffer.

In fact, those of us who experience love, compassion, and empathy are pathetic in the Narcissist’s deranged mind.

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Dark Shadow of A Narcissist

Dark Shadow of A Narcissist

Dark Shadow of A Narcissist

Dark Shadow of A Narcissist

Dark Shadow of A Narcissist

Dark Shadow of A Narcissist

Dark Shadow of A Narcissist


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10 Comments

  1. I really do appreciate these posts you share about narcissistic abuse. I’ve been sitting here trying to figure out if I was briefly involved with a narcissist and it’s a bitter pill to swallow reading how they are charming actors. You want to believe that they loved you as they promised, but their actions are always opposite and leave you feeling drained and filled with pain and doubt. Thank you so much for shedding light on this topic, Tamara. These posts are really educating me and helping me cope. 🙂

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    1. Manessah, thank you for your encouragement and kind words.

      You might have very well been subjected to a Narcissist as they can appear to be the kindest, most wonderful people you could ever hope to meet, until their Mask comes off, and you realize it was all just an illusion.
      Of course, not all “kind” people are Narcissists (so much Irony in Narcissism), there really is a pattern and certain Red Flags in which to be aware.
      Yes, they leave you feeling completely drained and exhausted, and all their mind games makes your head feel like it’s spinning.
      They can also be difficult to leave due to the “addiction” they cause their victims thru dependence on them.
      They are dangerous due to the insidious brainwashing tactics they use.

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      1. You are very welcome, Tamara! Wow.. that is really crazy. This is definitely a new world for me, and I’ve been struggling with the up and down emotions (i.e. missing them, not missing them, questioning what was real, what was fake, etc.). It takes a toll on the heart and mind, for sure. I’m just very thankful that our blog paths crossed because it gives me a different way to look at all of this and deal with it rationally. You really are a blessing on here, Tamara. 💖

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        1. Awe, thank you so much, Manessah ❤ When Writing About Issues that might stir others, sometimes backlash happens, such as that one commenter saying I was a Sociopath because my link didn’t work…lol… (just bcuz I write about Sociopaths and Narcissism to try and help others). So, it’s such a blessing to hear good things from sweet people, as yourself. ❤ I am so glad our paths crossed, too ❤

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        2. Also, if you ever have any questions or thoughts, feel free to let me know, Manessah. NPD Abuse can be a difficult (to say the least) journey to heal from. Not only can it be excruciating to heal from, but it can take years.

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          1. Thank you so much, Tamara! This is definitely a learning experience for me and I am so appreciative that you are taking the time to help others who are struggling with the same issues. You are strong and have a beautiful heart. Never forget that. 💜😊

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  2. Beautifully expressed, Tamara. Pity that Pain is what drove you such rhetorical heights. Having enjoyed your other work, though, I know positive motivations also drive you.

    I imagine the best means of resisting Narcissists is to ignore them. Depriving them of attention impedes decay as effectively as does dryness.

    You’re quite correct to observe that, contrary to the image projected, self-loathing actually is what impels Narcissists. Only by making others supremely miserable do they make their own self-imposed torments seem tolerable. Doesn’t work, though, when you walk away and stop playing “The Game.”

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    1. TA, you are really wise about NPD Abuse and Narcissists, in general. You truly “get it”.

      I am always honored by your comments, and staying in-touch with you.

      “Very kewl, this is”, said Yoda. “Like ya, Dawg”, I replied. (Yoda is scratching his head).

      Hugs,

      Tamara

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